Shoulda Been A Good One

I had a really nice weekend planned; Friday was dinner with friends, Saturday was lunch at the NC Museum of Art followed by a few hours exploring the Museum with a dear friend and then we were going to a wine tasting, followed by girl time at my place. Sunday was my day to relax. So what went wrong? It should have been so much fun but no! I started feeling sick to my stomach Friday evening while at dinner. Saturday, let’s just say that sleep was the only thing that kept me out of the bathroom. Sunday, I felt OK when I woke up so I decided to try out a church on Hillsborough Street. Now that’s a story, but one best told in person! Shortly after the quote from some long-dead Socialist activist but before the Jimmy Hendrix quote, the ‘ah-oh’...it’s back feeling hit me. Yep, right there in church before God and everybody my stomach started making noises that competed with the choir (who were actually very good). I decided to interpret this as hunger so on my way back home down Capitol Blvd., I stopped in Perkins for a quick bite. I hadn’t eaten on Saturday and I was convinced I was starving. As I followed the hostess to my seat, I saw another friend of mine and had breakfast with her and her delightful family. I ate my omelet and started feeling even worse but I plowed on through the pancakes as I had thoroughly convinced myself that I was starving – NOT sick. Well, the family left as they had errands to run and I finished my meal and left about five minutes later. I drove home doubled over and spent the rest of the day just like I did Saturday. I’m so upset with myself for not taking care of myself as I should, and for allowing this constant stress from my upcoming job loss, my rent and bills that are piling up, and my deep, deep desire to own my own herbal business but fearing that I’ll never make it happen because I don’t know how and I have no one to help me achieve my goal. I’m going to have to do some research into what combination of herbs I need to be taking to keep myself healthy. I need something for energy, something for my stress level that’s causing my tummy to act up so much, and something to lessen my sugar cravings. Tall order for what some call a bunch of weeds...

It was supposed to be such a nice weekend.